Sleep Insomnia

I’m lacking sleep lately and it’s been causing some pretty negative feelings inside of me. I wake up in the middle of the night or earlier then I want and can’t get back to sleep. Last week I had to take several naps in order to get through a whole day. I wake up with stomach pain, get up to use the bathroom, go back to bed, and then my mind starts going. Then, everything having to do with my business becomes overly stressful,  and due to my tired nature and that stress it became even harder to get a good nights rest. It’s been a vicious cycle.

Last night I got 7 hours of sleep which is quite decent for most people, but I stayed in bed for an hour more not necessarily asleep and when I finally got up I was still tired. Within an hour I was crying from being overly tired. I don’t quite understand how to get out of this mess. I start my diet cleanse soon and I’m really looking forward to it, but I’m still scared that there’s something else wrong with me. I miss getting out of bed ready to take on the day! Lately, I have just been praying to God to just help me get through each day. In my mind I’m not real stressed but I feel like my physical condition is causing it. So everyday I have to fight those negative thoughts and one hour I will be in a positive place and in another hour I feel like the world is crumbling beneath me. But, I’m fighting for sleep, I’m fighting for a positive outlook, for relaxation, and my health. I have a lot to be happy about and a lot to be grateful for. I know it! So I know that what’s wrong with me is just a physical condition that I need to fix – just need to keep reminding myself of it, but it’s incredibly hard.

I’m losing time to post and I’m a bit worried I’m missing out on the benefits of writing here. I apologize, I just can’t seem to blog when I feel so overly stressed. Hope to write something again soon.


Reprogramming My Brain

Lately, it’s been a chore of mine to stop myself from reliving past negative experiences in my head. I’ve been trying real hard to cut out all negative thoughts and either fill them with positive thoughts or positive words about myself. I’ve been waking up a lot in the middle of the night and have troubles going back to sleep because I’m thinking about so many things. Lots of things are going on and I can’t seem to turn off my brain that easily. But, I’m thinking the more I practice not letting my thoughts go to a negative place, not letting them go off on a tangent, the easier it will get. Maybe I will start to really seek control over my mind and gravitate toward more positive thoughts than negative. I spend way too much time thinking about my sensitive nature and worrying about future things overwhelming me. But, I’m sick of letting my mind run wild. It’s time I start fighting my negative thoughts with positive ones.