Sorry, Falling Apart Piece by Piece

I’m losing sight of what it feels like to be healthy and normal again. I’m a little bit depressed, always sleep deprived, and always have some sort of pain. When I have the time and energy I have to work and I don’t have time to post here. I’m worried I’m not doing a good enough job at being a wife, cat mom, a professional, and it’s all really stressful. Still figuring out what’s wrong with me. I’m having trouble getting enough sleep to function. And being highly sensitive doesn’t help. Hope to figure this thing out soon. It’s really putting me in a negative place.

Goodbye for now,

Jen

Sleep Insomnia

I’m lacking sleep lately and it’s been causing some pretty negative feelings inside of me. I wake up in the middle of the night or earlier then I want and can’t get back to sleep. Last week I had to take several naps in order to get through a whole day. I wake up with stomach pain, get up to use the bathroom, go back to bed, and then my mind starts going. Then, everything having to do with my business becomes overly stressful,  and due to my tired nature and that stress it became even harder to get a good nights rest. It’s been a vicious cycle.

Last night I got 7 hours of sleep which is quite decent for most people, but I stayed in bed for an hour more not necessarily asleep and when I finally got up I was still tired. Within an hour I was crying from being overly tired. I don’t quite understand how to get out of this mess. I start my diet cleanse soon and I’m really looking forward to it, but I’m still scared that there’s something else wrong with me. I miss getting out of bed ready to take on the day! Lately, I have just been praying to God to just help me get through each day. In my mind I’m not real stressed but I feel like my physical condition is causing it. So everyday I have to fight those negative thoughts and one hour I will be in a positive place and in another hour I feel like the world is crumbling beneath me. But, I’m fighting for sleep, I’m fighting for a positive outlook, for relaxation, and my health. I have a lot to be happy about and a lot to be grateful for. I know it! So I know that what’s wrong with me is just a physical condition that I need to fix – just need to keep reminding myself of it, but it’s incredibly hard.

I’m losing time to post and I’m a bit worried I’m missing out on the benefits of writing here. I apologize, I just can’t seem to blog when I feel so overly stressed. Hope to write something again soon.

Learning how to Network Effectively as an Introvert

I really want to get my business going as fast as possible and networking, word-of-mouth, and introducing myself to small local businesses are my best options. But, there’s only so much I can handle before my introverted, sensitive personality starts to get irritated, exhausted, and stressed. I hit that limit this week for sure.

This is definitely a struggle for me because if I network too much I will end up hating my business instead of loving it. If I network too less I won’t be giving my business the exposure it needs. I know I can find a healthy balance, but I do worry over time it’s just going to exhaust me to the point where I would rather be doing anything else. For now I’m staying positive about all the business opportunities out there for me. I know that once I have a couple different clients the networking will get easier and my business will become more fun, and I will eventually receive a lot of business just through referrals.

I don’t necessarily enjoy the networking I do even when I have the energy for it, but I’m convinced that once I start making friends it will get easier and easier. However, I’m absolutely concerned with where people’s heads our at with the design of some of these networking events. I attended one about a month ago that meets every Thursday for an hour and requires each person to pay around $450.00 for a year membership. I asked where the money goes and they informed me that it all goes to the corporate office. Then, they still have to pay for food each week when they meet. So someone chose to form this expensive group and charge people all this money when they could just create a small group of people who want to network and get together on a regular basis for free. I never went back, I never looked back.

There’s other networking groups with costs, but if I know my money is going toward something that I will benefit from directly then that’s another story. Very few networking events I attend are actually enjoyable. I feel like the elevator speeches and presentations are old, stale, and won’t last forever. I feel this is the older generation stuck in old techniques, yet I’m not sure quite yet how it could be done differently.